Tuesday, February 27, 2007
sighhhhhh... SUCKY SUCKY SUCKY!
failed napfa. well not suprising really. im damn un fit. looks like this is the consequences for the depression mode thats still slowy going away. hahaha oh well. i think tmr will be better. meeting swee and she's passing me some stuff for o's. heh.
okay. well the sit ups are kicking in. and i feel aching abs. thats why i didnt go to school. has some freaking cram thing that came when i got up to get my phone. then i went back to sleep in pain and woke up at 7 when my mom called me haha woops. so i didnt go to school haha tmr's going to be the parade day. hahah oh well. good luck GOH! haha
seems like my lifes picking the bad lane. it hasnt been very good. sighh alot of hiccups and there isnt any good sightings. well not much if you count smiling at myself for no reason. i really need something or someone to keep me preoccupied until i get over some things that have happened in the past. i still feel so in secure after everything that has happened. i was too rash sometimes also and i kinda understood it now. i didnt really have feelings for her and i guess all i really wanted at that time was something to fall back upon but i cant be what she was.
was going through my files and came across alot of old memories. sighh i really wish i could turn back time. like just a few months back and change everything that i knew that would happen. i guess my last year in barker would really be very fake towards some people but well fake friendships are better than no friendship right? haha. i still dont know what i want to do with my life. sometimes i feel that staying in barker for my final year wasnt such a good plan. i dunno maybe im just having like, low self confidence in my academic areas. maybe cassie would say that those things can be changed. just if i want to or not. i remember that she told me that like 2 years. no wait. 3 years ago haha thats almost 1000 days haha. goshhh those were the days haha hand phone bills going sky high haha :P now isnt that good but well after everything my phone's been quite neglected hahaha esp if i get my psp.
oh well its almost 10 i gotta go and sleep. tmr's gonna be a big day. well everyday that i dont know whats gonna happen would always be a big day. dont know what would happen haha.
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